After breaking the cycle of emotional, verbal, and physical abuse…I was able to walk away with more than wounds. I took away something more important once I was able to heal. I have learned what to look for in a relationship to avoid or warn others as well to walk away NO ONE deserves to be treated like a punching bag. No one deserves to wipe away tears streaming from sore eyelids, question their worth, and tip toe around bullshit. A common mistake I have made as well was: To never accept the love you may have thought you deserved. No one truly should be inflicted with pain.
If you know someone who is struggling with domestic abuse. Remember there are others who are recovering, currently experiening and those who are trying to run away from it. I am here for you, do not feel ashamed or alone no longer – My imbox and arms are opened for anyone who needs a friend to listen to you. You deserve more happiness, good health, and consistency. Yours truly, Samantha xo.
A poem I wrote for him…
You didn’t have to rip up my photograph,
Nor pitch furniture across the bedroom or call me things that weren’t true
You knew it hurt me especially when I cried
& never tried.
Thick and thin for us was constantly thin
With you, I could never win
I’m in the wrong when it wasn’t my fault
Moving along stayed impossible.
I was there through the hours of darkness
When things dim, you vanished like a shadow
Always expected me to come through for you
It would’ve been nice if I got that too
Repeatedly accused, abused, and confused
I wasn’t the one to be blamed for nonexistent shame
The bad guy along was the victim falsely viewed
There was no need for your disputes
I needed to put us to a rest
Finally letting things off my chest
It will never be the end of me; however, it will be for you
I thought what we had was real
But I got the shorter end of the deal